What can YOU do with $5?

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October 1st I got a real letter. Not junk mail or political advertising, but a real piece of mail from a real person named Laurie. And even though I don’t know Laurie, this made my day.

Let me explain. Laurie Shiers sent me a letter with a $5 bill to celebrate her 45th birthday. In the letter she explained that she is “giving $5 to 45 different Lauries who are also near their 45th birthdays.” She has asked each of us to help make a change in our communities.

So here’s what I did with my $5. On Saturday I headed to an open space trail to run and also volunteer patrol. As a patroller I count and greet visitors, ask folks to please leash their dogs and pick up trash (usually dog poop bags).

As I was running and counting I saw 11 dogs and finished my run with 5 poop bags. In my head I was thinking, if each of those dog owners left his/her poop bag on the trail, it sure would leave an ugly mess. So I decided when I returned to my car, I’d give my $5 to the next visitor I saw depositing his/her dog poop in the trash.

It didn’t take long. As soon as I got to my car, a woman with a HUGE great dane dropped her bag into the trash. I ran over and thanked her and handed her the $5. At first she was reluctant to accept the money but when I explained Laurie’s project she changed her mind and she let me take a picture of her beautiful dog, Targa.

It was a great feeling and I am grateful Laurie chose me as part of her birthday celebration! And to continue the celebration through October I’m going to get a bunch of $1 bills and each time I patrol this month will give dollars to responsible dog owners and a token of my gratitude for them keeping our trails beautiful. I hope they goodwill gesture will make even a small difference.

If you want to read more stories of the other Laurie’s from this project, check out brainchildcoaching.com (Laurie Shier’s blog). Maybe you’ll be inspired to take on a similar project. Targa the Great Dane

Silverheels 100 – 2016

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Kurt headed up Hoosier Ridge. My favorite part of the course!

One of the most common questions I get about ultrarunning is “Why do you run 100 milers?” Normally I don’t put much thought into this question but for Silverheels I thought about it a lot. Training for this race has been incredibly fun with runs and hikes almost daily in the mountains on some of my favorite trails with friends and even included a wedding hike up Mount Elbert. In most cases I pick a 100 miler to run for fun (yes I know that sounds wacky) but in this case my reasons for running didn’t become clear until well into the race.

Running the race made me feel a strong sense of kinship for all the people involved. I know Sherpa John puts his heart into his races and this one was no different. He designed a challenging course, went above and beyond to build and repair trail and lined up some outstanding volunteers who cared for me at every aid station. These people were a mix friends I’d met out on the trails or through running groups and also complete strangers who gave up their weekend to come be trail angels for the runners.

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Pre-race meeting at the church with Dave, Anaka, Terri and Christie

In addition to the volunteers, I was also surrounded by a super crew. I’d like to take credit for this crew but many of these people were recruited by my husband Kurt to crew us both. They included his parents, Nancy and Ken, his daughter Jenice and and good friends Andrea and Armando Risi and Matt Rutledge. Also jumping in to help were my pacers Lisa Mansfield and Brett Overby. They were all the super crew because they met me each time at the aid stations with cheers and enthusiastic smiles, dry

Amazing volunteers and runners - Stuart, Craig, Armando, Andrea, Christoph and his wife, Carolyn, me, Jennifer and Kurt

Amazing volunteers and runners – Stuart, Craig, Armando, Andrea, Christoph and his wife, Carolyn, me, Jennifer and Kurt

 

All these people, our ultra family seemed to be the reason I ran this race. Being in the presence of such kindness and generosity made me feels such a sense of gratitude and well-being. It was not what I expected to come away with from the race but it made every step worthwhile. And to each person who supported me (and Kurt), I owe you a huge debt. Thank you!

So now onto the nuts and bolts of the race itself. This write up is pretty long and mostly for me to record my memories of the race. Here’s the short version in 20 word or less. The weather was perfect, the course high and rocky and I finished in 33:10 (10th overall and 1st woman).

As far as pre-race prep, I had done all mine a week or two in advance, packing my drop bags and clothes WAY ahead of time as a way of keeping busy during the taper week. Since Kurt and I had marked most of the course in 2015 I hadn’t studied the maps or mileage. I had planned to carry the directions and map but wanted the course to be somewhat fresh and new on race day.

For those of you with time to kill, here’s the LONG version.

Learning from my lack of mental prep for the 2016 Leadville Race I’d also spent a lot of time on mental strategy. During my taper week I’d gotten a purple bracelet as a reminder of my mom (from the CJD foundation) and had written my 3 mantras on it. Thinking we’d have some adverse weather I envisioned myself as a buffalo running straight into the storm to get through it faster.  As a reminder to take in the beauty of the mountains I also wrote “yutori”, a Japanese word describing a sense of spaciousness in time and space. As a reminder of what had brought me to this race, my third mantra was “agape” which means the highest form of love.

Although I didn’t feel nervous I’m pretty sure I didn’t

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Jenice, Ken and Nancy – family and supercrew

sleep all night and I spent all night listening to Kurt snoring away. I knew this would have an effect on me through the night hours of the run.

Getting to the start felt a little rushed but I got one good picture of Ken, Nancy and Jenice before we headed out into the dark. The first miles on the road felt relaxed running next to Kurt and settling into a comfortable pace. I felt happy to running near Kurt and our friends Christoph, Jonathan and Richard. They kept

me from missing an early turn that while would not have caused me to get lost, would have cut off some important miles.

As the sun finally started to rise we were approaching the first aid station at High Park where Sean Cook and Brandt Ketterer happily greeted us with cheers, snacks and water. These guys had camped overnight so they could be ready for us at sunrise. With the forecast for rain most of the day I was thrilled to see low clouds and the sun’s brilliance lighting up Mount Bross.

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Sunrise over Mount Bross

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Kurt approaching the Silverheels Mine

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Jonathan Pope near Silverheels Mine

This first out and back trip over to the Silverheels mine was our first chance to see all the runners. It was energizing to see most of the leaders (although Andrew Skurka, the eventual winner was already so far ahead we didn’t even see him at this point) and friends Anaka, Emily, Dave and Jennifer who were also close behind.
Running back to the aid station Kurt was frustrated because his feet were already hurting. Strangely my feet hurt a lot too but I tried to tell Kurt it would pass and that he’d feel better once he loosened up. I could tell he was struggling and my encouragement wasn’t really helping.

The next miles seemed to fly by. I had the chance to run with Christoph Sholtes and Bogie Dumitrescu and the conversation kept me distracted. The clouds were keeping us cool and the predicted rain never materialized which was quite a relief.

Not really having studied the course I was just trucking along from aid station to aid station. I was hydrating well but from the start didn’t have any appetite. I was conscious of the need to eat so I would eat a few potato chips or a little bacon. At every aid station my spirits soared as I saw friends crewing and volunteering. I was especially happy to arrive at Tarryall (mile 37ish), the main hub of the race.

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Leaving Tarrryall (mile 37ish) with Bogie

One of the best sights was as I was leaving the Trout Creek aid station and saw Kurt being heartily greeted by Don, Grace, Mindy and Kevin as he approached. Periodically Kurt would catch up to me. His highs and lows were pretty extreme but every minute we could run together made me hopeful we’d both finish and probably close together.

Most of the rest I’ll just show in photos. What the photos don’t show are how much fun I had with my two pacers Brett Overby and Lisa Mansfield. These two made the race so memorable and entertaining.

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Kurt leaving Tarryall

Unfortunately I didn’t get photos or video of the night section leaving Trout Creek again. Brett Overby was pacing me and while the music, festive lights, fire pits, great food and warmth of Trout Creek were tempting, Brett and I kept trucking. Soon after leaving the hospitality of Don, Grace and Kevin, Brett and I both started to fall asleep. Climbing “jungle hill” must have taken us twice as long since we were sleep walking, staggering and hallucinating. Our hallucinations were not quite as scary as Christoph’s though, and at one point Christoph stopped and walked back on the trail to meet us because he was certain he had seen a bear ahead. Luckily Brett was coherent enough to recognize that the “bear’s eyes” were really course markers and we breathed a sigh of relief that we wouldn’t have to share our bacon. Once the sun started rising both of us seemed to rally and perk up.

Lisa’s section was much more lively and my goal was to make sure Lisa’s pacing experience was MUCH better than when she had paced me in 2015 at Leadville. I wanted to make sure I was coherent and at least somewhat cheery. (Lisa will have to let me know how I did).

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Brett was already resting his eyes before I arrived. (with volunteer Jennifer Forker)

After our “walking nap”, Brett and I arrive much later than expected at the Poor Man’s aid station. I was ecstatic to see Lisa and to have survived the night. For me, there is something very satisfying about getting through a night in an ultra with no headlight malfunctions. (It is one of my quirks to carry 3-4 headlamps just to be safe).

Sadly I received the news that Kurt had dropped out at 70 miles. Andrea and Armando didn’t give me details but I was shocked because the last time I had seen Kurt he had looked cheerful and I also know how determined he was to finish. I got really teary eyed thinking about how hard Kurt had fought not only to get to the start line but throughout the entire day. I was grateful Lisa’s energy would help keep me from dwelling on my worries.

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Coming into Tarry all #2

The time with Lisa flew quickly! She had stories to share, upbeat music and the perfect mix of encouraging me to eat and drink. Lisa took pictures and savored all the scenery. The highlight of my time with her was arriving at the Silverheels mine and stopping in the sunshine to change our clothes. I rarely sit down in races but loved sitting by the mine soaking up the warmth and knowing we’d be finishing soon.

Coming down from the mine we didn’t see a lot of people but we did cross paths with the second place female. While she was probably a few miles behind us, both Lisa and I decided we wouldn’t take any chances of her catching us. Lisa encouraged me to run. And I did…

I ran past the aid station even while Lisa stopped to get some bacon, ginger ale and crackers and chat with Sean and Brandt. I kept running down the road, trying not to look behind me. While I knew we had a good lead, I was still nervous about the chance of being caught.

As we got closer and closer to the finish line Lisa and I were catching and passing a few runners and seeing more spectators. (Thank you Lori and Jessica for coming out to cheer us on!) She was texting Kurt about our progress and I was using his energy to pull me toward the finish. I couldn’t wait to see him.

The final few miles felt just like the Boulevard at Leadville and all my joy seemed to drain into the hard, hard, hard, HARD dirt road. It was almost as if my mind let its guard down and all the negative thoughts about the HARD road flooded in. I was SO grateful Lisa kept her positive attitude and that we had just a few miles to go.

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Kurt with AS captain Stuart Cohen at Poor Man’s

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At Tarryall #3 with the pit crew. Brett Overby, Jennifer Forker, Matthew Rutledge, Andrea Risi

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Christoph at Hoosier Ridge

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Johnathan Pope, Sean Cook, Christoph Scholtes and Brandt Ketterer at High Park #1. Not sure what Jonathan ate but it MUST have been Good!

When we finally could see the finish area we were laughing and joking again and ready to see all our friends. I was most looking forward to seeing Kurt and was confused when I couldn’t find him. Finally someone told me he had gone to Frisco to get an IV for dehydration and while I felt sad not see him, I was relieved he was okay.

Overall it was a hard race for everyone and I was grateful to be one of the 19th finishers. Lisa was even more of a saint to drive me and Ken back to the hotel to shower nap and refuel with the burger she had gotten.

Here are some pictures from my phone, Lisa, Andrea, Terri, Don and Grace and Jenice. Sorry they aren’t quite in order.

Christoph getting his buckle from Race Director Sherpa John for his 1st 100 miler

Christoph getting his buckle from Race Director Sherpa John for his 1st 100 miler

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Craig Woodward and Brett Overby waiting to pace

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Heading out to Alma (around mile 60) from Tarryall

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The BEST crew ever. Matt and Lisa helping me with my socks. Brett with coffee and noodles, Jenice with coconut rice. (not that I ate any of it).

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Mindy helping Kurt at Trout Creek

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Coming into Trout Creek

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Lisa is ALL smiles! coming down from the mine

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Trout creek oasis complete with lights, music, food and 2 FIRE pits. Thank you Don, Grace, Kevin and Mindy!

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Darn, he’s too small to ride to the finish

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I made it!

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Kurt with Armando Risi

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Craig Woodward, Brett Overby, Matt Rutledge, Matt Barnes, Mindy Hamilton, Andrea and Armando Risi

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Hey, look! I’m eating Sheila Huss’s pumpkin pie at Poor Man’s

 

What it is like to be an Estranged Parent

I have an incredible 17-year old daughter who is creative, bright, artistic, AND wants nothing to do with me. I say that without exaggeration because she refuses to see me and has not spoken to me in over a year. I won’t go into the details of how we came to this dark place but for me it is just that, very dismal.

Most people do not know my story because I try very hard to hide my grief. I’m telling it now, not to gain sympathy but to help people understand and because I suspect there are other parents out there who feel this deep sense of loss and aloneness.

In a “normal” parenting situation you get to go to soccer games, school plays, concerts, award ceremonies, graduations… Estranged parents are still parents caught in a kind of limbo. Do you go to the school presentation even though it may be awkward and cause some drama? Do you keep sending notes, cards, texts and letters knowing you won’t receive a response? How do you delivery your birthday or Christmas gifts? Do you keep reaching out and making yourself vulnerable?

The dilemmas you deal with are not clear cut and weigh heavily on you because you already carry so much guilt about your lost relationship and your role in it. Every decision, no matter how well thought out seems wrong.

What many people don’t realize is the hidden grief that emerges every day from the most ordinary situations. Commercials, advertisements, parties, conversations, celebrations… bring up feelings of guilt, regret and deep sadness.

One of the biggest questions that has emerged for me: How do I define myself and the path for the rest of my life?

While this sounds dramatic, when you envision your future (with or without kids by choice) you have a certain amount of control about the direction you will take. If you have children you plan for braces, first cars, college… If you don’t have children you plan travels, adventures, retirement… When you are caught between, it is hard to plan at all.

All of these challenges are ones I am learning to navigate, not gracefully, but so far I’m surviving. Every day there are moments to celebrate and three promises I stick to when it comes to my relationship with my daughter.

1. I won’t become bitter or resentful of my friends who have loving, fruitful relationships with their children.

While it can be painful, I don’t want to stop hearing the warm stories of the triumphs of my friends’ children. At first this was very hard for me and I found myself distancing myself from my family and friends with children but this seemed even worse. With a change in my attitude I’ve learned to feel joy from the success stories my friends share about their children. I won’t say my record in this area is impeccable but the positive energy from them, far outweighs me having a pity party.

2. I won’t give up trying to tell my daughter that I love her and will always be here for her.

This is also a challenge because there certainly are days where I want to step away but I know taking this “easier” route is not the best solution for anyone. If she wants me in her life, I want to be readily available. I apologize frequently and try not to hound her but want her to know I will always love her. I reach out to her regularly and view this temporary communication as one way to keep it from being too painful for me.

3. I won’t give up hope.

This promise is the hardest for me. When my bleak moments and days set in I find myself being terribly pessimistic. I build walls, protect myself and pretend I am not hopeful but I dig down and preserve that glimmer of hope.

Thank you for reading this and please share it with other parents, whether they are estranged or not. Having insight into a broken parent/child relationship I hope will help build empathy and a sense of gratefulness in parents who may not know how lucky they are.

I also hope one person, whether in the role of parent or child, will take the steps to reconnect. While not all relationships can or should be salvaged, there are many cases where misunderstandings and hurts can be healed by time and hard work.

If you are co-parenting with another, I encourage you to help your child maintain a relationship with the other parent. I’m a believer that in most situations children need both their parents in different capacities throughout their lives.

If you are a child who has cut off communications with a parent, I hope you will consider taking a chance on fixing the relationship. No parent is perfect and every parent makes mistakes.

If you want more information here are some articles and resources.

Huffington Post Article: Children Who Break Your Heart

Parents of Estranged Children Support Site

Next Avenue Article: Why Some Grown Kids Cut Off Their Parents

What to do in 2016? An Ultrarunner’s dilemma

flowchartWith 2016 here and the way races fill in mere hours (or require lotteries) planning a race schedule requires knowledge of statistics, probability or a heck of a lot of luck. So as an ultrarunner how do you plan a race schedule?

  1. Start in October so you can lay out your lottery options. (If you are reading this now, you have the option of waiting until next October or just accepting that you’re a procrastinator).
  2. Learn how to draw those funny flow charts. This is a simple example. You might need something more complex depending on how many lotteries you are entering. (If you are really into the process you could mount a HUGE chart on your living room wall just to have it available all year. Not my idea but I saw a Final 4 Bracket mounted like that once.)
  3. Get a second or third job to pay for lottery fees. You can worry about race and travel fees once you get into a race or two.
  4. Gather ALL your lucky charms together and carry them with you on every run. If you don’t have any lucky charms, go get some.
  5. Don’t choose a race you have run before. With so many great race options, WHO in their right mind would do a race more than once? (Nobody I know).
  6. Send off your entries and wait with your fingers and toes crossed.

OR…

Take the alternative route and find smaller races with no lotteries and avoid the stress of the 6 steps above. This route allows you these advantages:

  1. You can pick races you will really like based on terrain, weather, location and your specific training.
  2. You can save all those lottery fees.
  3. You don’t have to learn how to make those silly charts.
  4. You won’t get gray hair hoping to get into THAT race or staring at your computer for hours trying to get a coveted spot the moment registration opens.

Whatever you decide… GOOD LUCK! And may the odds be ever in your favor. Happy 2016! IMG_7928

 

Race Report – Mogollon Monster 106 (or 107) miler

Here is how Mogollon Monster 100 race directors Jay Danek, Jeremy and Noah Dougherty describe the race on their website “This is a VERY technical course in many areas…In fact, I’ll go so far as to say this is THE MOST technical 100 miler out there…That coupled with the additional mileage to a traditional 100 mile race, the terrain, moWarning signderate elevation, and intense Arizona sun, this race will certainly take its toll on each runner…To be very clear, this is an extremely hard, remote, rugged, and difficult 100 plus mile ultramarathon.” Reading that description, I know it’s like those funny signs you see at trailhead that you think are intended for other hikers or runners. Nope, this applies to ALL the runners, experienced, new, young, old, crazy…

For those of you with ADHD (like me) here’s the short version of my race report. Believe the RDs.DSC07201 This is a ROCKY, technical, long, scenic, ROCKY race and one I highly recommend if you like rocks (I have a big collection of them, usually in my shoes), hills and a challenge. The Mogollon Monster is a well-organized and executed race with outstanding volunteers, support, course markings and bling. And if you go: do your homework, prepare for a range of weather and trail possibilities and enjoy whatever Jeremy, Jay, Noah and Mother Nature throw at you. It all makes for a tougher run and a better story.

So if you want the LONG LONG version (kind of like the race) of MY particular race (because it is all about me). Here it is.

It is the ‘before’ that is the hardest part. Once on the start line the job is simple. Simply to run. …All I could do is run the best race… -with my heart and soul, as well as my head and legs.  -Lizzy Hawker

Running 100 miles is never simple but Lizzy Hawker sums up my Mogollon run perfectly. The hardest part was getting to the start. The race wasn’t easy but I ran my best and loved every (well almost every) one of the 2,081 minutes I was out there.

Although I’ve done a number of ultras, signing up for Mogollon was a decision I agonized over for over a year. I wanted a Hard Rock qualifier but in 2014 was not willing to give up doing my 10th Leadville 100. Deep down I was afraid of a harder, longer, different race. But after spending the summer climbing 14ers and exploring new mountain runs, pacing Rocky Mountain Slammer Sheila Huss (yes I’m dropping names) at Bighorn 100 and Hard Rock and reading Travis Macy’s book The Ultra Mindset I knew I needed to step out of my comfort zone.

Even though Mogollon is just 5 weeks after Leadville, I signed up, booked my plane ticket, found a cozy guesthouse in Pine on AirBnB and then focused on finishing Leadville before tackling the details of “the Monster”. Although I finished Leadville, it definitely showed that I was in need of a new race. Even with my best season of training I finished close to the cutoff and didn’t feel my heart was in the race.

DSC07230So what did I do in the weeks before Mogollon? I got a recovery IV (hours after finishing Leadville, which I highly recommend). I constantly asked Abby McQueeney Penamonte a million recovery questions. I hiked. I ran. I did some heat training. I slept as much as I could. And of course I obsessed over details of flying and packing poles, drop bags, airline/guest house/rental car, directions, weather. Luckily my friend Carol put me in touch with Nadine Haluszczak (eventual 2015 Mogollon Monster female champion and course record holder) who was willing to answer my questions and ease my mind. Carol and Nadine also worked very hard to set me up with a pacer for 35 miles of the run through the night. 

Friday afternoon we landed in 102 degree Phoenix and picked up our rental Prius (for some reason this was not the crew car I envisioned for Kurt) . The road to Pine had saguaro cacti, elk grazing and bugling and our pre-race dinner stop: Sonic burger and fries. Not my usual well-planned pre-race 100 meal. After picking up my bib # and admiring the shiny finisher’s buckle we headed to our guesthouse just 3 minutes away. It was the ideal place to stay and our host, Susan greeted us with ice cold water and homemade pumpkin bread. I rechecked my clothes, shoes and drop bags and was in bed by 8PM.

DSC07121On race morning I ate a light breakfast of coffee and gluten-free almond french toast. At the start Nadine introduced herself. Nice to have a familiar face on the course (even though she’d be miles ahead of me). I spied Kirk Apt (legendary Hard Rock finisher) and another InkNBurn ambassador who stood out in his unique “muscle” shirt. After Jeremy (I think it was Jeremy) gave some race directions (follow DSC07123the yellow tape not the red, don’t get lost in the 6-foot tall grass, be nice to hikers and volunteers…) he played the National Anthem which brought tears to my eyes. We were all ready to run!

Start to Pine Cabin- This section of trail had gentle climbs and with lots of trees and smooth red dirt. We settled in and everybody seemed chatty and happy. Even the first climb up to the rim with its switchbacks was pleasant. I was enjoying the climb and soaking in the cool. I made sure to start snacking (on Fuel 100 Electro-Bites) as I climbed. I reminded myself to drink a lot and take in food about every hour. Carol was at the aid station which made me happy.

Pine cabin to Dickenson Flat – Heading out from Dickenson Flat I finally felt relaxed. The trail was not as gnarly as I imagined. The weather felt warm but there was a cool breeze and shade. I focused on the positives, remembering to stay present. On the road I made friends with Steven from Dallas, TX. Chatting made these road miles fly by and I enjoyed hearing about my buddy’s training and races. Based on his training he predicted his finish time to be 28:07. (Steven did finish in 35:43)

Dickenson Flat to Geromimo – This section of trail did get sandy and steep but luckily it was a downhill. Picking my waDSC07124y through the rocks I smiled for the race photographers. It was also encouraging to see runners here & there. I followed Jennifer from Boulder who was moving well down the hills and like me, stopped at a few springs to soak clothing (or my HPRS buff) to keep cooler. I was managing my water and snacking on Fuel 100, salt tabs and occasional licorice candy. I noticed I was getting scratches from blackberry bushes and yucca and both my skirt and shirt had snagged but I considered them “battle wounds” from the day. I fondly thought  of my friend Abby and knew she’d be proud or my scars. I also knew when I returned to this section on Sunday at mile 87, Kurt would love the blackberries. These happy thoughts made me smile.

Geronimo to Washington Park – At Geronimo the kind volunteers put ice in my pack and I munched more potato chips. This next section was pretty hot and exposed but I was careful to pay attention to my heart rate and walk in places to keep it low. I thought of Travis Macy’s book, The Ultra Mindset about how I could write my own story in my mind and did so here. Although it was hot, my mindset was positive, recalling how I’d heat trained and was prepared for the warmth. It worked.

Lots of lizards skittered around but thankfully no rattlesnakes. A few folks ahead of me ran out of water and were drinking directly from the trickles of streams. I find my Dallas friend who is chatting with a runner whose black cat tattoo reminds me of Black Cat fireworks (Yep, the heat was already making wild connections in my brain). The black cat runner says he’s suffering from the heat. We walked/ran into AS together. All the runners with Garmins said this was at mile 30 (course map says 28.4) my Strava had stopped working. I was thrilled to see Kurt and was feeling good so I filled my pack with ice and water, got soaked down with ice water, dumped my phone and some of my food from my pack and ate some chips. Kurt warned me about the upcoming climb being gradual to the top but then rocky and steep like Mt. Morrison. I was excited for this climb.

Wash Park to Houston Brothers – On the gradual part of the climb I saw a group of older hikers stopped in the shade. They cheered and were so encouraging! When I reached the steep section (45% grade, NO joke) I was grateful I’d climbed Mount Morrison near home. It had prepared me to keep my footing on loose rocks and choose a line and climb with reckless abandon. I chose the rocky ascent rather than the smoother higher trail because the rocks afforded more grip.DSC07134 I loved the work of climbing. When I reached the top I was greeted by the kind ham radio operators who did race tracking. The next section to aid was mainly road, gradual uphill, normally something I dreaded but after the rocky climb I smiled and settled into a trot.

Houston Brothers to Pinchot Cabin- At Houston Brothers Carol helped me by filling my pack with ice (I’d been drinking well) and her sunny energy was contagious. This part of the run, the cabin loops were perfect for running. There were times I wanted to walk, to take it easier but I kept repeating a mantra I had come up with earlier “WWAD?” (What would Abby do?) I’d come up with this because my friend Abby, one of the toughest trail runners I know (who had won the Women’s Grand Slam in 2013)Towering pines and DSC07135hundreds of ferns lined the single-track trail. Before I realized it I was climbing up to Pinchot Cabin aid station.

Pinchot Cabin to Washington Park – This section also passed quickly. The sun was starting to set and I was anxious to get back to Washington Park to see Kurt and pick up my pacer, Josh, a local runner who had graciously volunteered to pace me 35  miles through the night. Gingerly picking my way down the powerline trail again was more challenging in the dark and I felt relieved to make it down without slipping on the sandy rock. I arrived at Washington Park energized for the most difficult part of the race.

Washington Park to Hell’s Gate – When I arrived at Washington Park my main goal was to be sure I had good lights and LOTS of caffeine for the night ahead. Kurt helped me change my shoes, fill my pack and check for lights, a jacket and snacks. Josh was patiently waiting while I tried to do 5 things at once, exhibiting signs of extreme ADHD. I finally got everything done and we headed out and up the trail. This section had me the most scared of the entire race and I knew if we conquered this climb back up to the rim I’d be more confident about finishing the race. Having Josh with me made the night an adventure. Even hearing the bull elk obviously close to the trail didn’t startle me.

The grass was indeed as tall as described and in many places we tripped over hidden rocks, huge trail steps or even the edge of the trail. Josh was patient about finding the markers and the search kept me very alert. Even the times where we seemed to have lost the trail, I did not ever feel concerned or discouraged. We reached the appropriately named Hell’s Gate with a sigh of relief to be through what we thought would be the worst part of the grass.

DSC07138Hell’s Gate to Buck Springs – The vertical climb up to the rim was interesting. Josh commented that he didn’t think we really were on a trail. We joked that the RDs had just sent someone out with some reflective tape and had them mark a random way up through the grass up to the top of the canyon. The one disconcerting thing was that even in the dark I could tell there was a drop off if we stepped off the “trail” and Josh slipped sideways several times, making me a little nervous.

At the rim we were greeted by orange flashing lights and a nice, flat trail leading to the road and 3.3 miles to Buck Springs.

Buck Springs to Pinchot Cabin – Running through the night was disorienting but even felt even more after the brain drain of searching for trail markers. I was alert but noticed I was having mild hallucinations. Every so often I’d spy a dragon, a lady in old-style dress complete with a bonnet, a flying donkey and even an upside-down dump truck. I was kind of enjoying the distraction that continued through the rest of the race. Josh and I moved steadily through this section passing a few other runners. At Pinchot Cabin the fire was inviting but after eating some grilled cheese we ran out into the warm night. Not having a watch I wasn’t sure what time it was but started to wonder about cutoffs and didn’t want to waste time.

Pinchot Cabin to Houston Brothers-  Since I had run this section during the day I had a sense of what to expect and this was encouraging. We ran a long flat section that paralleled a fence and then the trail steadilDSC07142y rolled gradually up. With the prospect of daylight and getting back to Kurt I was picking up my pace a little (very little). Climbing felt really good and as the sun rose and we climbed up to Houston Brothers I noticed I’d left Josh behind. Worried he was bonking I offered him some food but he wanted to wait for the aid station. Calculating the distance I had left, I told him my plan to refill my pack and keep trotting down the road while he ate. He seemed relieved to sit at the aid station to eat some solid food.

Houston Brothers to Washington Park – On my own I trotted down the road playing a “game” I always did with my pacers. I wanted to get as far ahead before Josh caught me. It didn’t take him long but it kept me moving with purpose. After the smooth road we turned to run down the powerline trail for the third time. I sent Josh ahead to let Kurt know we were coming and to tell him I only needed a tank top and a bandaid.

Washington Park to Geronimo – With a huge sDSC07154mile I ran into Washington Park and found Kurt. Although I knew I had sand and pebbles in my shoes I didn’t want to risk taking them off and then having my feet swell before the final 20 miles. We tried to put a bandaDSC07172id on a small blister on my heel but my calves were covered in SO much dirt that even KT tape wouldn’t stick. Kurt exchanged keys with Josh and we left him sitting contentedly on a cooler behind us. I rang the bell signaling my final time through Washington Park and started off for the final 20 miles!

With 20 miles left and Kurt beside me I started to relax which sounds good but was actually bad, very BAD. For the first time all day I lost my focus and my spirits started to dip along with my pace. I wDSC07178as still hallucinating and spied Bigfoot in the shape of a stump, a lounge chair with beer in the cup holders and a little girl lying under a bush. Every time I’d ask Kurt if he saw these things he’d ask if I needed caffeine to get rid of the visions but I was kind of enjoying them. Kurt picked some blackberries along the way and they tasted sweet but still didn’t get me moving any faster.

Kurt encouraged me to run and I’d try for a few steps and then stop. Not wanting to walk the next 20 miles to the finish, in my head I kept an ongoing dialogue about how well I was doing, how I could run and kept asking myself, “WWAD?”. It worked a little but this 10 mile stretch took me almost 5 hours! Even though we were at mile 97, we had 10 miles to go and neither Kurt nor I wanted to spend 5 more hours out on the trail. Something needed to change!

Geronimo to the Finish – When we arrived at the aid DSC07189station the workers were saints. They poured water on my head, fed me pumpkin pie and filled my arm sleeve with ICE! Ice became my super power. With my ice I was invincible and was going to power to the finish. Kurt and I thanked the volunteers and left for the 2 mile approach to the last KILLER hill. Savoring my ice and thinking of every icy thing I would enjoy once I finished (ice cold limeade, an cold shower, ice cream, popsicles..) I focused on steady climbing and once in awhile even left Kurt behind if he stopped to take pictures. When we reached the top, I let out a cheer!

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From here the volunteers had promised no more hills. They were true to their word. They didn’t mention that many of those downhill miles were on the rockiest trail I’d ever seen. Kurt and I laughed and said, “This is NOT a trail, it’s a rock garden.” We reached the Pine Trailhead where the race had started and entered a silver culvert. Walking through this made me feel dizzy! It felt like I was walking through a fun house barrel. Emerging from the culvert onto the highway I was thrilled to be back on the road. (Hard to believe I would ever be excited to run on a paved road!)

As exhausted as I was, I remembered to savor the finDSC07190al stretch to the finish. I had made it in 33:41!  I got my buckle, hat and then sat down and ate a hamburger. It felt good to sit down to empty all the sand out of my shoes!

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I can’t say enough great things about this race! Thank you to Jeremy Doughtery, Jay Danek, Noah Doughtery and all the dedicated volunteers for staging such a quality event. It was apparent they thought through every detail and went out of their way to be sure runners had every chance for a positive experience. I also want to thank Kurt Hardester for helping me get to the start and finish line, Carol Tichio for making sure I got a pacer and helping me out on the course, Nadine Haluszczak for giving me course descriptions and helping with pacer ideas and Josh Motter for driving from Phoenix to pace a complete stranger and be sure I didn’t get lost in the dark! I also have to thank all those folks in FRUR in Colorado for supporting me from afar. Having the energy of all my Colorado runner friends kept me focused and upbeat throughout the entire race. photo12039341_10204045556173746_2884472362579884707_n

Learning from streaking

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I’m a running snob.

I only want to run single track trails that climb significantly or have beautiful scenery.

I only want to run if it’s at least 6 miles or longer or has 1, 000 feet of elevation gain.

But this year I am trying something new and this month my “new” experience is a running streak. (Which can mean running naked but also means running every day in January.)

I’m not sure about why people choose to do streaks but I’m guessing reasons like:  jump starting training, get reluctant runners out the door, building mileage, losing weight… I’m not even sure why I’m doing it. (peer pressure?) I just know it can be a dangerous endeavor for an OCD runner like me.

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One of the benefits of streaking

I half-jokingly call myself an OCD runner but truthfully it has taken me 20 years to learn how to take days off and NOT run. And I’m pretty comfortable taking one, two or EVEN three days off a week from running. But this streak thing could ruin me!

You might laugh and ask why but picture this. So it’s 8 degrees out and it takes 20 minutes to get dressed to run outside. While my streak only requires 2 miles a day, my mind says, “Well, you are already dressed and out here, why not add 3-6 miles?” Or when someone asks me to go run I think, “Sure, I only need 2 miles but it will be more fun with company. ” And of course when you run with a partner you can’t just cut out at 2 miles if they are going 10.

Can you see where this is headed?

You’d think I’d be smart enough to avoid these pitfalls, but alas… OCD habits are hard to break.

BUT…

On the positive side, doing this streak has gotten me out on days and at times might not normally be running. Monday I saw a sunrise that lit the sky on fire. Tuesday I ran slippery, sloppy, snowy trails in the warm and dark AND loved every minute of it. Today I skated along in the freezing fog on paths I’ve spotted numerous times from my car. I waved at folks running on dreadmills, listened to a pair of hooting owls and giggled slid down a ramp like a skateboarder sans wheels.

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Where I DON’T want to streak

On each of these runs I discovered something, practiced something, challenged my body in a new way.

3 days and each one an adventure.

I’m still a running snob but streaking has made me realize that every run has a purpose and a learning experience.

I just have to pay attention to find it.

Community… it puts the fun into training

Human Potential Races Sawmill Fat Ass December 2014

Human Potential Races
Sawmill Fat Ass
December 2014

Last year I wrote about finding “your tribe” – a post about finding people who surround us with goodwill and uplift us when we need it most. (looking-for-fun-and-motivation-find-your-tribe)

Looking back on 2014 I have been fortunate to discover and rediscover my tribes. Besides my closest running friends, (many who I met through The Colorado Columbines Women’s running club) I’ve found community in the Human Potential Community  (the HPRS which overlaps with the Front Range Ultra Runners), Front Range Boot Camp, and rediscovered the Colorado Masters Running Association.

People in these groups are inspiring folk who get me out of bed at crazy hours to do insane things that only true friends can understand. They are the people who laugh when you forget your headlamp for a 4AM run (because they forgot theirs too), lend you their extra set of gloves (socks, underwear or bra) so you can run, commiserate with you when you are injured and sleep with you (or maybe I should say next to you) at trailheads so you can run up a mountain or two.

While ultra running can be a solitary sport, in no way is it a lonely sport. Even if you have to squeeze your runs in at 4AM before heading to work or at 6PM after a full day, there is someone else out there willing to join you if you just reach out. As more of an introvert, I’ve found making that first connection is usually the most challenging. Once you’ve gone to that first group meeting or run, you start to see familiar faces and are introduced to new folks every time you attend.

So I encourage you to take the leap and go to that fun run, fat ass, race, group class, outing or event. Curious to find out what it’s about… check it out here. 

100 Head/Heart/Feet – A review of a running film you don’t want to miss

100_poster3ALTHaving seen a number of ultra running films recently, I was not sure what to expect from 100 Head/Heart/Feet, but this movie is a stand out in so many different ways. William Peters and Mike Mooney of Hammer and Saw Films show the human side of ultra running through one man’s quest to finish the Vermont 100 miler after two thwarted attempts.

From the moment the movie started, I was struck by the fascinating camera work, the visuals balanced with the voice-overs, the music and most of all the human element of the story. The attention to details give this movie a polished, professional look absent from many running films.

But this film is more than eye candy, it is informative, inspiring, engaging.

The storytelling is done mostly by the runner Zak Wielun, his family and crew. It is interspersed with training sequences, race shots, interviews with other ultra runners and related experts and gives a complete picture of ultra running from an ordinary runner, The honest nature of Zak’s footage draws you into his world and forges an empathic connection with him that keeps you rooting for him.

To me, this movie shows the normal human side of ultra running that is often overlooked. In the past filmmakers focused on the elites, the recovering addicts, the outliers in the sport, but like Matt Trappe’s film, Running the Edge, about Scott Jaime’s FKT on the Colorado Trail, this film shows the “normal” side of ultra running. Those ordinary folks out there who skip sleep, lunch breaks, social outings to squeeze in miles to pursue the 100 mile dream while keeping a balance at work and home.

Zak could be your next door neighbor who heads out in any kind of weather to run. It could be your office mate who brings 3 changes of clothes to work in order to fit in training miles. It could be the mom who you see pushing her sleeping baby in the baby jogger on the bike path in your neighborhood. This film sends an overarching message that “any person with the drive and grit can do an ultra.” It is not easy, it is not pretty and most of all, it is not crazy. But it is possible.

Any runner who dreams of running an ultra, has run one and DNF’ed or anyone who wonders “Is it possible for me to be an ultrarunner?” should see this movie. I guarantee it will move you.

Hammer and Saw will be screening this film at Festivals and are in the midst of putting together a tour throughout the United States. These dates and times will be published on the Hammer and Saw webpage and Facebook page.

Indian Creek 50

With so many factors going into organizing and executing a race, it’s difficult for any race to be perfect but I’d say Sherpa John (the brains and brawn behind Human Potential Running) pulled it off with the Indian Creek 50s. Ideal fall weather and spectacular scenery contributed to making this race memorable but the work put in by John and his crew was apparent. The course was well-marked, aid stations well-stocked (even though volunteers had to cart food and water 3-6 miles) and post-race food and beer was plentiful and delicious. My only complaint was that I was undertrained!

Starting at 6AM in the dark may sound daunting but truthfully darkness made the first 9.5 miles fly by. John warned us that the course would go up and down with very little flat in between but in the blackness with costumed super heroes and cats running past the hills seemed easy. Spirits seemed high as runners greeted the sunrise over Roxborough State Park.

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Sunrise at Indian Creek 50

Becca Hall and Walter Olsen at sunrise

Becca Hall and Walter Olsen at sunrise (taken by Kurt Hardester)

After the promised climbs and descents we arrived at the first aid station (Rampart) with a huge spread of food. I enjoyed this food immensely, especially after seeing the huge hill the volunteers had to carry all the supplies up. I think carrying a 35 lb water jug sounds much harder than running a 50k (even with my UD pack fully loaded)!

Jeff Gallup hauling water to the aid station (photo taken by Kurt Hardester)

Jeff Gallup hauling water to the aid station (photo taken by Kurt Hardester)

Although weather forecasts had predicted 70+ degrees, we were fortunate to have cloud cover and a breeze that kept temperatures reasonable. For November 1st it was ideal weather. After the Rampart aid station we headed into a wooded section of the course.

With just 130 runners doing both the 50k and 50 mile races there were stretches with a lot of solitude. With the soft trail and variety of terrain and scenery, I enjoyed this quiet time. I did have some torturous miles where my mind could not stop hearing the chorus “Let it Go” from the movie Disney movie “Frozen. ” Luckily I stayed sane enough to keep from singing the lyrics aloud.

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Runners’ Roost athlete Milan taking a break on the Colorado Trail section

Leaving Roxborough State Park, the course had a short stretch on the Colorado Trail down to the Stevens Gulch aid station (THE DAM station). Run by Brad Bishop, this aid station did not disappoint! Runners were welcomed with cheery smiles, signs claiming “Phidippides almost died at this point in his run” and warm quesadillas. Brad and his crew encouraged runners to take food to munch as the trail was going to get significantly steeper. (Which it most certainly did!)

Running back toward Roxborough - photo courtesy of Kurt Hardester

Running back toward Roxborough – photo courtesy of Kurt Hardester

Photographer Kurt Hardester in his red mohawk

Photographer Kurt Hardester out on the course in his red mohawk

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Although I was feeling sleepy, heading back toward the Rampart aid station (and eating a handful of EnergyBits) put a spring in my step. It seemed every time I’d feel an energy lull, I’d come upon another runner and we’d strike up a conversation. It seemed every runner I met had a cheerful demeanor.

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Christoph with 9 more miles to the finish of the 50k

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More runners heading into the final miles. With at least one (or 2 or 3) relentless climbs ahead


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DSC03423I was very excited to come around a corner to see the campground parking lot that signaled the final stretch of the race. While it was an amazing day, I was relieved to be finished. The post-race festivities fulfilled me almost as much as running the race. I spent the next few hours sitting in the sun, munching delicious Noodles and Co. pad thai and chatting with other racers as we cheered on other finishers. It was exciting to see so many runners completing their first ultra with huge grins on their faces.

This was a memorable way to end my 2014 ultra season. With wintry weather looming I’m glad I could squeeze in one final ultra.

Next up – rest, recovery and some entertaining Fat Ass runs around the front range.